youth

today I was thinking about that line ...............................youth is a state of mind..................I was looking at my 13 year old granddaughter. who has just come into her own.........she is so lovely. so lean and healthy. and it came to me............who are they kidding???????????????????? you are as young as you feel. that s the truth. and if you have some medical problem's especially the ones that last and last with little relief. you have have the heart o a lion and the joy of a child but you will feel terrible............You will be forced to work within the boundaries of your own body. That is always always pretty. Trust me. I feel old.older than any lady I know. and I know some damn old ladies....................you have any idea how depressing that can be. but I fight the depression DO you know why.........??? Because this is as good as it gets. every day. what you have is how it is. you can make the most of it or fall under the weight of it. its up to you......It isnt easy. The longer the struggle goes on, the more you want to just cry and rage again the unfairness of it all but that Will get you noting but more of the same and a worse day than you had yesterday because this day you don't even have you on your side. when that day comes, you have truly lost.......... if meds work get a doctor who apreicates your need for them and how often you nned them. if you need surgury , dont ut it off,,the older you get on that table the worse it the surgery may affect you. All this can be avoided............enjoy your limits and stretchen them a bit each day....you wil fel good about yourself. you wil smile and in that feeling good and smiling, your battered body will ower u even if only a bit and hel you grow along in a positive future you..............