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IT AS BEEN A SAD CHAPTER FOR THIS FAMILY. FOR ME. PAIN WITH NO RELEIFE IN SIGHT. NOW I MUST TRUST TO A SGERY i DONT WANT AND DONT REALLY BELIEVE I NEED, A GOOD FRIEND DIED LAST WEEK BY HIS OWN HAND HIS WEEK A YOUJNG FREIND OF MY DAUGHTER HAD A STROKE BRAIN DEAD. SHE HAD NO FAMILY TO TURM OFF THE VENTILATOR . NO ONE TO GIVE HER A FUNERAL. SHE WAS ALONE IN THIS WORLD. SO MY SON IN LAW AND AND DAUGHTER COULD NOT TURN THEIR BACKS N HER. THEY SOENT EVERY MINUTE OF THIS ORDEAL AT THE HOSPITAL AND WILL CONTNUE TO BE THERE UNTIL THE BODY IS DROPPED INT HER RESTING PLACE. POOR KIDS. mY CHILDREN ALL OF FINANCIAL WOOS OF THEIR OWN. SO MASSAVE, IT WOULD BRING LESSER CHILDREN TO THEIR KNEES...BUT THEY DO WHAT THEY CAN AND SMILE FOR THIER CHILDREN THROUGH IT ALL. i fear more a stroke or heart attach. I am td I am now at high rish. I try to help myself but I cant shed th weight the meds keep on me..... I do all I can t keep a positve mind and soul and heart but when you see your children suffer, it can bring you to your knees. I do still harbor hope I will find way to brig money int my mitte family and give them some little base on which t rebuild their homes and dreams.................Its my deepest and only wish. even more thanmy own health and ear of death at this srgery, fear I may not heal well. pain has been my compainion for 35 years. I dread the idea od 35 more but I will gladly trade my health , my life if it helps my children t find contentment joy and happiness void of financial woe..........................This is my prayer.......... If I cant HAE MY CHILDREM BOTH HERE TO LOVE BY ME, SEE HE SUNDAYS FOR DINNER HOLIDYS ALWASY TOGETHER.........THERE IS NOTHING MORE i WANT OF THIS WORLD,,,,THE PAIN IN MY BODY TOGETHER WITH THE PAIN OF MY HEART CUT IN TWO ..ONE HALP IN CALIFORNIA..ONE HALF IN NEW YORK.ITS TOO TOO MUCH T BEAR..........